breaking boughs
bent live oak branches
the weight of ice
today this mask
feels good
James Brush is a teacher and writer who lives in Austin, TX. He tries to get outside as much as possible.
breaking boughs
bent live oak branches
the weight of ice
today this mask
feels good
I thought I was some problem
scientists could solve, a theory
the Nobel prize they’d hang up on their walls
but we’re from the last generation
that can disappear completely, unplug
pretend we’re never home
we laugh like animals, laughter welling
from some place behind the deepinside
we ghost away from old classmates
& lovers, drink this don’t pay attention
there is nothing happening here
this pretty postcard says it all
make a list of daydreams now & line them up
like soldiers staring over border walls
cop sirens
the woods between us
coyotes
See the fireflies spark glowing light
this is the drought you can’t escape
listen to the glimmer in your eyes
if there were stars out tonight
that’s how they would shine
you can’t go around Texas
it’s everywhere—in your clothes,
your hair, stuck between your teeth
a jet plane’s contrail
splits in two, a heart breaking
dissolves into cumulus clouds
that look like bees
I wish I was a horseman racing
headless heedless wild down the plains
bright sunshine glints on razor wire
an egret pumps the sky
a daytime star in blue
imagine the newspaper you read every day
I will be the article you clip & never throw away
now do you smell the slow spring coming?
the grass humid with the buzz of dragonflies
an airplane’s drone reaches the rec yard
it’ll land somewhere in a few minutes
we will still be here
imagining birds & sky & other lives
sunlight moves like a broom
through wild worldspinning grass
the grackles in the trees are machines
tuning up & ready for the day’s
music no one would recognize
a heartbeat on the edge of familiar
songs written in dead languages
& trees that grow twisted on the plains
could be the old hair metal guitar
that escaped the pawnshop wall
I stole this from some stories you used to tell
something from beyond the memories
of great grandparents & 90s hard drives
a butterfly struggles flaps mad
through the yard
warm morning daguerrotype sunlight
& notes slipped past the censors
the swoop and swirl of phony wood
painted on a tabletop
listen: we drift through high plains
memories from movies
& dry dust surf rock soundtracks
beneath an overturned mason jar
gears drop into that smooth oscillation
how we dance now we dance how we dance
I wish I was an Iceland gull
soaring over stormy seas
I’d act like I belonged there
there like tiny purple flowers
in green grass, sparks & eruptions
where killdeer poke along
a summer road
twisting down the mountains
ran a river road
we knew it so well
knew it wouldn’t end
but we’re clocks
& we cannot tell the time
I want to open
every night
knock on candlelight
talk to something frightening
secret, somehow
a way to see
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Erasure poem from Number the Stars (p22) by Lois Lowry. We took pages from an old copy that was falling apart and bound for the recycle bin and distributed them to our classes to make erasure poems. This was mine.
Crystalline beaches on some Philippine island,
somewhere I’ve never been:
an ad—digital sharp—on my screen.
I remember faded Kodak color,
old photos from the tropics,
a distant childhood,
faded blue mountains and a blurry sea.
Grainy life seen in a kid’s Instamatic 110
makes me wonder
about the ad, the way Luzon might
look to modern or at least grown-up
eyes. I can almost hear the roaring
vintage fighter jets. Do tourists
who answered the ad look up at sky
printed in the ‘70s?